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The thing she desires
The journey has begun
With many stops and hurdles
Being beautiful is no easy task
She is always aware
Defining what is a woman
Hips to narrow shoulder to wide
She paints her face to hide her own
Her eyes like deep water
A artist of a world hide from the sun
The rest is secret in shadows
Her beauty is admired
The surface of what has become
Tucked and plucked everything is done
Her reward is in the mirror
Her success is measured
Like drops of rain
She’s wet with wonders
Her educate nurtured and trained
She studies her flaws with a careful eye
Those she can change are rearranged
No one expects she was born a man
What remains she hides with destine
There is a point of no return
When what defines is cut off
She’s freed but in prison
A world held by thread
Looking back those she effects
The things she destroyed
The marriage the children
These are the things that matter
The heart dies a slow death
Shedding each hope like leaves
Until one day there is none
No hopes nothing remains
Listen to my words hear my plea
Some where you must find your tranquility
No matter how much I taste and smell like jasmine
I am not that flower
You've been tricked being sifted
to destroy the image of man
Look I was to the point of HRT
I was very passable,with three boy friends
than there was a problem with my sister who
didn't care for my life style and was
married to the district attorney
I was arrested my hair cut of beaten
and worst of all my children took-en
from me.
it took six long hard working years with
hundreds of hours of parenting classes to
be-able to get my children back and to
this day I still cringe when I'm around
the police
while in Jail they kept me in solitary
confinement till didn't let me even have
a razor blade when they finally gave me
one I used a cheap single blade razor to
shave my body I was so cut up and bleeding
that they had to send me to the infirmary
I after 40 days and 40 nights of crying
out to Jesus that I heard from God and
was able to make that transformation
again to a man and now love my self still
I tell you this because transgender community
have the highest suicide rate of all groups
no matter what I did I still wasn't a woman
and just ask one they will tell you "you will
never be"
Listen if I walked that path so can you
Jesus loves you and excepts you as you are
