when GOD made you he was thinking of me

marry me

I love you babiedoll

with my whole heart

Letters to Joesph my son

Babie boy how I miss you lately its been real hard on me not being able to talk to you, but God showed me that you can and will read my letters, so I am writing you one now.   I know I tried to get your mom to move on you leaving so early with out us ever being able to hold you in our arms.   I don't know how I ever exspected her to move on since I can't my self, and I didn't even carry you in side me for five months like she did soooooooo.

You will have to visit me in my dreams and answer these question for me I have so many.   Did God send you to be with another family that maybe didn't have so many boys I'm sure you would have been my favorate.   Do you get to spend a lot of time with Jesus.  I bet you have a neat room.

I bet you have fun watching koty and I play with your brothers, I told them about you we all made a thing out of marble in the shape of hearts all of them intertwind they wanted to make a heart like me for each of them so I told them about you and they made a heart for you too.   it was neat how michael your next oldest big brother seemed very excepting of you and knows that your in heaven I too like that.   is that you that gets koty going out in the yard, if it is I love watching he is a silly little dog huh.   little mister wiggly butt.

I am sooooooooo sorry that I haven't wrote before this but I promise I will make up for it
Love your daddy

For your birthday my son

My co-parent asked me today what I was planning for Michaels birthday since it is a month away. I told her that I would like to take him to Disney or go deep sea fishing off the coast of Monterey go see yogi bear at yellow stone national park, sit down in a field of yellow flowers that match his hair and have a picnic with some honey of course. Show him a picture of the world and tell him I give it all to you.

She said I am serious nerd, than she said in reality

I am his father who loves him very much. Is it sooooo wrong to speak over my son these are the very promises that my Father in heaven says is mine and his!

Why does God love us so much that he gives with a open hand unending blessing that will over take us that we can not contain. He will place angels around about us. That His hand will guide our path Every step we take he has already given us the land, No matter what I lay my hand to he will prosper.

That in the darkest of times when all seems lost He will prepare a table for us and make our enemies our foot stool, and that he will give me the desires of my heart. What ever I ask for in Jesus name will be done and that I will do greater things than He

God is not a man that he can lie

I know that he will not read this but dear little Michael my beloved child whom I love very much I give it all to you